A Woman Alone

A Woman Alone

Somewhere between
“I deserve better” and
“What if better doesn’t exist?”
There is a long dark field
Of lonely emptiness

Where the strong good women live
Who have not found the Love
They deserve With another
So they endure, and subsist
On their Love for themselves

Their integrity and dignity,
Their hopes and dreams
Having learned not to tolerate abuses,
Not to settle for the thousand excuses
They build their Lives alone

They create for themselves their homes
They find strength within,
In the darkest nights
When there are no arms to hold them
And no comfort from their fight

To exist in a world designed
To make Everything harder
For a woman who must survive
On her own,
In a world run by men

Where a woman alone
Is a woman unloved, unwanted,
Unworthy, without the comfort
Of a partner who cares,
Who loves, who helps

Carry the load of the work of living
Without the Joy of being Loved
Of being Chosen, they must choose
To go on, to be strong
To not give in to grief

This world is so hard
For women who are alone
For mothers who raise children
On their own, who must shoulder
Every burden and responsibility

With out the support of another
A world designed for couples
Where many hands
Make lighter the work
And the Happiness found

In sharing special moments
With someone you love,
Who loves you in return
Is a fairytale we long for
But lose hope that we will ever find

Some where between
“I deserve to be truly loved” and
“Dear God, it’s so hard to be
so Completely alone”
Is a place of heartbreaking loneliness.

I’ve been living here so long,
I’m not sure if there’s anything else.
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The Power of Names

I was born with a different name. Given by parents who didn’t want me and didn’t love me, yet selfishly my father named me after himself. I grew up acutely aware that I was unloved. When I heard the beginning of the story of Sleeping Beauty as a little girl, that her parents named her Aurora after the dawn, because she brought light into their lives, I wished to be loved like that.

When I passed through my first initiation in my teens, I was asked to choose a new name. I chose Aurora Victoria WindDancer – “Light’s Victory”, because I knew I was loved as a source of Light by the Gods and Goddesses, and the ancestors, and the guides, and guardians and I was a wanted child of the Universe. WindDancer – because of my affinity for air and the pure joy I feel when I call the Winds to dance around me.

I changed my legal name to Aurora in my 30’s when I realized that there was no one in my life who knew that person I used to be anymore.

Taking a magickal name is a sacred act of self-actualization, and the creation of connection between one’s mortal self and one’s immortal Soul and the Divine. Most people use their spiritual names only in private, or among their closest friends in their spiritual community. And for many years this was true for me as well.  However, as my life within the Pagan/Tantric/Spiritual communities in Oregon/WA grew to become the largest part of my life, as my Community became my Family, as I trained and studied and learned and taught and served, as I became a Queen, and a Priestess – more people in my life knew me as Aurora, than as the name I was given by those biological parents so long ago.  So I made a decision to fully embrace Who I Am and to take My chosen name as my legal name, and to let the past of my painful childhood fade away with the birth name that I let go.

Unconditional Love is not…

Unconditional Love does Not mean Unconditional Relationship.

Unconditional Love does Not mean having no boundaries.

Unconditional Love does Not mean being a doormat.

Unconditional Love does Not mean denying my own Needs and fulfillment to meet the needs of others.

Unconditional Love does Not mean tolerating being used, being abused, being neglected or taken for granted.

Unconditional Love does Not mean letting the other person treat you like a pizza, only taking the slices they want and picking off the toppings.

Unconditional Love is Not a drive-thru menu of a la carte pieces of me or my heart.

Unconditional Love can be given from a safe distance with healthy boundaries that protect my well being and spirit from mistreatment.

I can Love you unconditionally from my spirit and wish you health and happiness… And still have healthy conditions and boundaries around how I’m willing to relate to you.

Unconditional Love does Not mean sacrificing myself and my well-being for yours. Sometimes I will choose to do so when your need is greater and/or more immediate.

Unconditional Love does Not mean I have given up my right to say No to what is not good for me.

~ Aurora WindDancer

“The root word “condition” in “unconditional love” does not apply to the verb “to love,” but to the subject of the sentence, “you.” This means I will love you, no matter what condition you are in. It does not mean I will love you under any conditions, even if you are breaking my boundaries.” ~ Sienna Newcastle

Take my hand…

Thank you for spending some time with me! I hope you find something here that brings you Joy, comforts your heart, inspires your soul, or stimulates your mind.

I am a Poet, Priestess, Songwriter, Singer, Mother, Mystic, Music Maker, Tantric, Teacher, Student, Aspiring Author, Playwright-In-The-Making, Ritualist, Thespian, and writer of esoteric musings about Life, Love, The Universe, and why people do the strange things we do.

For me, this is the beginning of an adventure to pursue my passion for writing, harness my voice and develop my skills, and share some beauty with the world. Walk with me a moment or two, and hear the Words Dancing on the Wind.

I Am The Light