“When a significant relationship ends, when an important person leaves, when a deep love runs dry leaving you wondering where it was leaking from all that time… There are unusual things you give up that you don’t realize you subsciously blocked from your reality until the moment they appear again and you can choose to re-add them to your life.
It took me almost five years to be able to eat mizithra cheese again. There are thousands of small insignificant things we just can’t do anymore because it was associated with the one you lost. But each one you take back, gives you back another piece of yourself, and another measure of peace for yourself.”
Originally written one year ago, so much has happened in the year since I wrote this that I feel almost like a different being. There’s so much more I’ve reclaimed in my life since. So much more I’ve learned, so much more I want and am choosing to manifest. My heart’s journey of healing has been long and arduous, but I feel it beating stronger now. The cracks where it broke, became the spaces where the light came in, and it grew.
Sept 4th 2020, reflecting back on Sept 4th 2019, reflecting back on four years of struggle, healing, grief and growth.