Melancholia

there is a deep
aching sadness
so intensely painful in my soul
that my body feels it
like a great hole in my chest
filled with only the weight
of my longing and sorrow
a grief of aloneness
that not only drowns
my waking hours
but haunts
my solitary dreams
with the despair
of a Goddess
of Love,
who has poured love out
for eons
but has never received love
in return
no matter how much
I love myself
still I feel the agony
every day
of being unloved
but this melancholia
of loneliness
will Not be the death
of me