Everything Stops

Everything stops

When he holds me in my dreams

I sink into a deep Earthy warmth

My nerves stop firing alarms

My vagus nerve relaxes

As I breathe deep

I’ve never really been able to sleep

But when my head is against

His chest my being softens

A heavy weight lifts off me

I feel like I can stop sprinting

With the world Atlas’d

On my shoulders

I let go

And everything settles

Into a deep Earthy warmth

That holds me safe in my dreaming

In a peace deep enough

To be planted in

Mortali-Tea

If I die tomorrow
Would I be content
With the lives I have touched
With the kindness I’ve given
To those I have loved

If I die tomorrow
Has what I’ve done and given
To the world been sufficient
Have I accomplished my missions
Can I justify my existence

If I die tomorrow
Have I Healed more than harmed
Given more than taken
Provided some inspiration
Helped others to awaken

If I die tomorrow
Knowing the world is not yet
That “Better World” we dream
Have I done my part to help
Continue the Great Healing

If I die tomorrow
Will the Beloveds I’ve left behind
To continue the peaceful fight
Have what they needed from me
To fully Shine their Lights

If I die tomorrow
Can I step into death with Grace
Knowing I’ve done all I could in this lifetime
I’ve left Humanity better than I found it
And perhaps the world a better place

If I live tomorrow

If Death puts down Her tea
If She smiles and chuckles at me
And leaves me yet to breathe
How can I love and live and give best
With the time I have left

So when she visits me next
I will know I am ready to go
If next time I must die tomorrow

~ Aurora Victoria WindDancer
Β© April 6th, 2017
#WordsDancingOnTheWind
#Poetry #Mortality #Mindfulness

**Original title Tea With Mortality – gratitude to my friend Logan for the amazing new title πŸ’– **

Pluviophile


i love rainy days at the coast
the perfect excuse for doing nothing
they’re so quiet and unassuming
they never insist on “doing something”

just rest, relax,
take a load off your shoulders
breathe in the clean air
listen to the birds sing their rainsong

this is not a day that makes demands
the sun is not shining, the air is not warm,
there is no pressing need
to make the most of it

this grey delightful day
has no desires to be seized,
just a book that wants a good read
and a bath that promises warmth

a cup of coffee with no motivation,
a sky that drips,
“you didn’t really need to go anywhere…”
a sigh that exhales it agrees

~ aurora winddancer
march 18th, 2021
wheeler, oregon

A Son’s Poem

This came up in my FB memories today. My son Westley wrote this poem about me for a school assignment in Jan 2018. πŸ’–πŸ˜­πŸ’–

Poetry assignment for class:

Westley Black
English 10
1/22/18

My Mother

My mother is a goddess
She is the rain, and the sun
The moon and the stars
A mother to a child is home
The first arms you ever laid in
The first house you ever lived in
Her body is a temple like yours and mine
She taught me the power of β€œNo”
And the strength in β€œYes”

Her heartbeat is like the drum of the world,
It moves to the sound of the universe
She is a mother, and a sister
An aunt, a friend,
A witch and and a priestess.
A playwright and an entrepreneur
She is strong yet gentle,
She is powerful and yet humble
Her life flows like the river
Rushing and rapid, then calm and deep
She is a child and woman,
A leader and an anarchist
She is all of these things and more
Because she struggled
Her life is neither all dark,
Nor all light
But she is light
Because she chooses.

I’m Not Asking…

Frida Kahlo told her husband,

“I’m not asking you to kiss me, nor apologize to me when I think you’re wrong. I won’t even ask you to hug me when I need it most.

I don’t ask you to tell me how beautiful I am, even if it’s a lie, nor write me anything beautiful. I won’t even ask you to call me to tell me how your day went, nor tell me you miss me.

I won’t ask you to thank me for everything I do for you, nor to care about me when my soul is down, and of course, I won’t ask you to support me in my decisions.

I won’t even ask you to listen to me when I have a thousand stories to tell you. I won’t ask you to do anything, not even be by my side forever.

Because if I have to ask you, I don’t want it anymore.”

Not My Day

Today was not my day,
and that’s ok.
It didn’t have to be,
it didn’t owe me anything.

Today was not my day,
but I’m ok.
It’s nothing a bit of comfort food,
and a cup of tea couldn’t fix.

Today was not my day,
and the world’s not ok.
But perhaps tomorrow,
will be better for us both.

December 15, 2020
~ aurora winddancer

I Carry Your Heart

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)

i am never without it (anywhere i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)

i fear

no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows. (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud, and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

Qualities That Qualify

A while back one of my best friends advised me to sit and really think about, and write down, what qualities I value in people, and what I find attractive. I resisted at first, but she said to me “You should do this so that you’ll have clarity on what’s really important to you, and what you feel makes a person a positive healthy connection – so that when you meet someone who aligns with your values you’ll recognize them.” So I did.

Here’s my Qualities That Qualify

Integrity, intelligence, wisdom, humility, kindness, compassion, trustworthiness, authenticity, strength in the face of adversity, the courage to be vulnerable, curiosity, drive to accomplish their dreams, willingness to do the work of becoming the best version of themselves they can be, a love of learning, a desire to serve and give back, passion for what truly matters to them, self mastery, strong ethics, a person who reads and pursues knowledge, is interested in science, philosophy, history, and can sustain thought provoking conversation.

Depth. An open mind, an ability to listen for understanding the other person.

Spiritual awareness – in any form that helps them grow and feel connection to the world around them and to themselves.

Personal power. A man who lives his life standing on his own two feet, facing a Universe that can crush him in a million ways, with a smile, confidence, and a heart full of Love to give.

I don’t care how beautiful the packaging is, if there’s an empty box inside. But a person with these qualities is Gorgeous, no matter what they look like.

Destiny – Chapter One

“Can I keep you?”
He whispered, eyes shining
Like the moon and stars had
Left the skies and taken up
New residence within his blue
The passions of our kisses
Not like a first, but a reunion
Of lovers kept long apart
By circumstances beyond our control
An eternal embrace finally restored
Two hearts united once more
“Yes.” I replied with certainty
We’ve been together in our dreams
For years, I’ve loved you beyond time
Our future has already been seen
Each step leading us to this moment
Our destiny has come now
We step forward coalesced
Our souls entwined
Into the next chapter
Of the Life we will write
As One

~ aurora winddancer
November 19, 2020