But my head was underwater
They called me weak
Like I’m not just somebody’s daughter
But it felt like they were right there
And it feels like yesterday was a year ago
But I don’t wanna let anybody know
‘Cause everybody wants something from me now
And I don’t wanna let ’em down…”
~ Billie Eilish
This song, really just this part of this song, has been playing in my head, been singing it to myself under my breath on repeat.
I’m so exhausted by being the person everyone needs something from but feeling like no one gives a fuck about me. My cup is so empty from so many people taking from it.
“Let’s face it, you’re a girl. Your mother was right about one thing. We’re just vessels. And even when we’re told we’re special, as I was, as you would’ve been, we’re still just vessels… for them to take… and take…” ~ Yennefer, The Witcher